I-AM-FUDGE

 On April 12, 2021, Pastor Dharius preached a sermon on being number 12. This sermon is the reason why this site was born. We all should strive to be the best in what we do, I want to be #12.

I am Number 12, I'm not built for the boat, I am wired for the water. I'm not better than you-I'm just different.  Who is going to influence what I am doing, the 11 in the boat, or the 1 walking on the water?

I realized I needed to step down from the boat, and walk on the water to Jesus. As long as Peter kept his eyes on the Lord, he had no fear... once he looked away, he began to sink.

The struggle that number 12 has is they don't want to leave the other 11 in the boat, but they cannot live with themselves if they don't go towards Jesus. 

Take some time to listen to the message, you will be blessed. 

Excited to be off and spend some time with my family for Spring Break and heartache hits. Monday, March 18, 2017.
I was told "I'm done." What does that mean? I don't want to be married anymore. She said this as my heart broke and tears started to stream down. "What?" "what do you mean?" She said it was too late to save our marriage. We are leaving. I asked if I could take her to where she wanted to go- and she grabbed a bag of clothes we got into the car and I dropped her and Ocean off at her friend's place. A few days later it was Ocean's birthday and we met up in Kapolei. I took her to fun factory and then to lunch at the Cheesecake Factory. Ocean asked to stay that night with me and my sister and mom threw her a surprise birthday party. She loved it.
Fast forward to the fall of 2017 and the word "divorce" came up... Never thought that word would enter my marriage. I obtained a lawyer and all the paperwork she filed against me went through them. It was a drawn-out process of back and forth, but finally was stamped completed in May 21, 2019. Four days later her mom would marry and was already pregnant, but that is for another entry...

Ocean is in second grade in Mililani where she spends Monday through Friday with me. She has the weekends with her mom.
Being a single dad is awesome. I love spending all my time with my baby girl. We ride bikes, play on iPads, water balloon fights, swim, pool, beach, go out to dinner, you name it we go for it!

Looking back at this situation, I am so thankful for my family who continues to stick by me and pray for me. My friends who support me. and I am thankful for my Lord who brought me through this time. I know that it is not over since we share custody of Ocean but I pray that I can be the best dad I could ever imagine to be.

If anyone is going through or has gone through this terrible thing called divorce, and needs someone to listen or just be there. Please reach out.

The past couple of months- the past year really I have just felt as though I have been beaten up physically and mentally. I am being attacked spiritually and my mind is going crazy. 

This is what I want.
I have always been a watch guy and feel naked without one, so I know I will get every penny worth in buying an apple watch.

So it has been about 8 months. I have been trying to lose weight and be healthier but nothing seems to work. All of a sudden I started to lose weight. I am now 90lbs down from the heaviest I have ever been. Great right?

So February 1, 2015 I go to sleep like a normal Saturday night. The next morning I wake up and can't get up out of bed. Literally cannot get my legs under me to stand up. I'm starting to freak out. It seem as though I 'will' myself up out of bed. An hour or so later I feel ok, just weirded out that my legs feel like there is no muscles at all. I decide to go for a walk that afternoon, and my golf day with Kaipo and Ronnie is canceled for me.

My legs have felt sore or stiff during the day so I didn't think anything except the fact that I have lost a lot of muscle and they are just a little weaker.

On Monday February 9th, 2015 I made the decision to go back to the gym. All I did was shoulders, arms and some crunches. The next morning, same thing, I can't get up. I manage to get out of bed, get in the shower and drive to work. I almost fall out of my truck when I get to my parking lot, my legs were so weak.

Thursday afternoon I help Carissa move our rooms from one to the other, I am carrying dressers, drawers, etc. Didn't seem like a lot of lifting, but then Friday morning, I can't get up again. This time it's worse. No strength in any muscles, arms, shoulders... nothing.
I am completely freaked out I pace all morning from 3am until about 4:30. I can't sleep, I'm afraid to lay back down, I can't even get up off of the couch. On my way to work, I call Dr. Mark and explain the past few weeks to him. He turns on his Doctor voice and tells me to go to the doctor and get some blood work done.

Friday morning while at work I call the doctor and ask for an appointment to speak to the doctor. I get to the doctor at 1:30pm that afternoon and explain everything again, she orders a full spectrum of blood work, urine test. I don't walk out of the office until 2:45pm. I am told I have type 2 diabetes. I pick up medicine and a blood sugar test kit.  The weight is lost, but my blood sugar is still too high.

Saturday morning I get a phone call from Dr. Kwan. She tells me that the majority of the tests come back and yes my sugar is high, but she is not too worried about that. She tells me that my thyroid is not working correctly and making too much of what ever it does. I am now taking a thyroid medicine to help it calm down, and a blood sugar pill to help bring my sugar down.

I am so thankful for Mark telling me to go to the doctor. Who knows how long I would have gone with my legs not working, or possibly not waking up one morning.

After months and months of working on something, it's very nice to receive the recognition.  Since I returned back to Early Childhood, I have been working with three different centers on NAEYC Accreditation.  On May 20, we had our visit here at Rainbow.  I had to fire a teacher 3 weeks before our window, and come up with an entire classroom portfolio.  Redo the entire classroom and paint, purchase supplies, redo bulletin boards, signs, charts, EVERYTHING needed updated or fixed.  Hired a sub from another center and yes of course, the facilitator visited that classroom. She stayed all day, visited four of our classrooms and then left.  We waited for almost a month.  On June 11 I checked my account and saw that we did it.  Also got an email that morning with our certificate!

So I just signed up for the Purium 10-Day Transformation.  I will be posting again with my pre and post pics.  I have seen some lose quite a bit of weight in 10 days.  I am looking forward to this new product, losing some weight, looking and feeling better- and maybe even make some money.

If interested, here is the link to my page.  Mypurium.com/iamfudge

It has been a long time since an update to my blog.  I have been very blessed these past few months with being able to spend time with my daughter and little family.  Ocean is amazing.  She does something each day that blows my mind.  I can't believe how smart she is.

I love this so much.  You don't have to be a singer to appreciate this!